Whelp I think this tumblr thing has officially run its full course with me. So I just wanted to close this out officially.>
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There are some new ‘followers’ mostly off the sexy or nude vintage stuff when I was more 'out there’ on the 'wanting to be seen scene’. 'Welcome and enjoy the archives.
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To the other folks I’ve become familiar with and to the great folks I’ve met on here in person or shared a degree of closeness online, thanks for these cyber memories.>
I’m still in the realms of IG but I’ll be strictly regulating my usage there in the coming weeks. IG is a whole other wild wide spectrum and my scrolling discipline has been on flux. Time to buckle down on that too.
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As far as my tumblr is concerned, I’ll probably turn parts of this blog into a book somewhere down the road. The years I spent growing and changing were interesting to say the least and the few tidbits I shared are footnote worthy. >
I learned many things in here, but I also wasted a lot of time on here too endlessly scrolling.>
I was never popular in the ways I 'thought’ I wanted to be and yet I still wanted to be. But I wasn’t willing to be something I naturally wasn’t. So I felt torn. I was getting caught up with comparing what I’m not who I’m not and what or where I should be. Triggering myself with scenarios that were non existent. Feeling like I wasn’t exciting enough or something especially when I stopped doing nude shoots or talking about Domme work or bing snarky, I somehow 'became irrelevant’ plus I’m older and ageism is a thing or at least how I see/saw it😐
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My perception of myself became distorted in those things as I scrolled around. Yes even as a 'older’ person, I was still finding myself affected by these things…these social media true falsehoods.>
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However, I’m resolving those internal issues now and I’m feeling okay about me again.
Im returning to a more simpler feeling living and doing mostly life offline. Without the need of a 'brand’ or constant content building to 'stay relevant’ building follower counts and most of that 'sm’ shit that essentially becomes forgotten about with the next few points and clicks or scroll up/downward. After years of doing this dance, Im officially getting off this dance floor lol
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With that being said, Cheers to y'all and thanks for the tumblr memories.
Minnie Joycelyn Elders (born Minnie Lee Jones; August 13, 1933) is an American pediatrician and public health administrator. She was a vice admiral in the Public Health Service Commissioned Corps and the first African American appointed as Surgeon General of the United States. Elders is best known for her frank discussion of her views on controversial issues such as drug legalization and distributing contraception in schools. She resigned in December 1994 amidst controversy. She is currently a professor emerita of pediatrics at the University of Arkansas for Medical Sciences.
Early life and education
Elders was born Minnie Lee Jones in Schaal, Arkansas, to a poor farm sharecropping family, and was the eldest of eight children, and valedictorian of her school class. The family also spent two years near a defense plant in Richmond, California. In college, she changed her name to Minnie Joycelyn Lee. In 1952, she received her B.S. degree in Biology from Philander Smith College in Little Rock, Arkansas, where she also pledged Delta Sigma Theta. After working as a nurse’s aide in a Veterans Administration hospital in Milwaukee for a period, she joined the United States Army in May 1953. During her 3 years in the Army, she was trained as a physical therapist. She then attended the University of Arkansas Medical School, where she obtained her M.D. degree in 1960. After completing an internship at the University of Minnesota Hospital and a residency in pediatrics at the University of Arkansas Medical Center, Elders earned an M.S. degree in Biochemistry in 1967.
Surgeon General of the United States
Elders has received a National Institutes of Health career development award, also serving as assistant professor in pediatrics at the University of Arkansas Medical Center from 1967. She was promoted to associate professor in 1971 and professor in 1976. Her research interests focused on endocrinology, and she received board certification as a pediatric endocrinologist in 1978, becoming the first person in the state of Arkansas to do so. Elders received a D.Sc. degree from Bates College in 2002.
In 1987, then-Governor Bill Clinton appointed Elders as Director of the Arkansas Department of Health. Her accomplishments in this position included a tenfold increase in the number of early childhood screenings annually and almost a doubling of the immunization rate for two-year-olds in Arkansas. In 1992, she was elected President of the Association of State and Territorial Health Officers.
In January 1993, Bill Clinton appointed her the United States Surgeon General, making her the first African American and the second woman (following Antonia Novello) to hold the position. She was a controversial choice and a strong backer of the Clinton health care plan, so she was not confirmed until September 7, 1993. As surgeon general, Elders quickly established a reputation for controversy. Like many of the surgeons general before her, she was an outspoken advocate of a variety of health-related causes. She argued for an exploration of the possibility of drug legalization and backed the distribution of contraceptives in schools. President Clinton stood by Elders, saying that she was misunderstood.
Views on drug legalization
Elders drew fire - and censure from the Clinton administration - when she suggested that legalizing drugs might help reduce crime and that the idea should be studied. On December 15, 1993, around one week after making these comments, charges were filed against her son Kevin, for selling cocaine in an incident involving undercover officers, four months prior. Elders believes the incident was a frame-up and the timing of the charges was designed to embarrass her and the president. Kevin Elders was convicted, and he was sentenced to 10 years in prison. He appealed his conviction to the Arkansas Supreme Court, and that court reaffirmed the conviction. The court held that Mr. Elders failed to show that he was entrapped into making the narcotics sale. There was no further appeal.
Comments on human sexuality and termination
In 1994, she was invited to speak at a United Nations conference on AIDS. She was asked whether it would be appropriate to promote masturbation as a means of preventing young people from engaging in riskier forms of sexual activity, and she replied, “I think that it is part of human sexuality, and perhaps it should be taught.” This remark caused great controversy and resulted in Elders losing the support of the White House. White House chief of staff Leon Panetta remarked, “There have been too many areas where the President does not agree with her views. This is just one too many.” Elders was fired by President Clinton in December 1994. Elders had previously made a number of other statements that put her in the public spotlight, like her quote in January 1994 “We really need to get over this love affair with the fetus and start worrying about children.”
A collection of her professional papers are held at the National Library of Medicine in Bethesda, Maryland.
Post-governmental activities
Since leaving her post as surgeon general, she has returned to the University of Arkansas for Medical Sciences as professor of pediatrics, and is currently professor emerita at UAMS. She is a regular on the lecture circuit, speaking against teen pregnancy. She has appeared on TV in Penn and Teller: Bullshit! during the episode on abstinence, where she says that she considers abstinence-only programs to be child abuse and discusses her opinions on teenage sex education, masturbation and contraceptives. She is interviewed in the 2013 documentary How to Lose Your Virginity on her opinions regarding comprehensive sex education versus abstinence-only sex education.
Elders wrote a book in an attempt to present her side of the controversies that surrounded her during her 16-month tenure as surgeon general.
In an October 15, 2010 article she clearly voiced support for legalization of marijuana:
I think we consume far more dangerous drugs that are legal: cigarette smoking, nicotine and alcohol… I feel they cause much more devastating effects physically. We need to lift the prohibition on marijuana.
Dear white (or white identifying) people ESPECIALLY THE 53% OF WHITE WOMEN who some of these silly fucktards belong to. Who voted for the head daddy fucktard #45. These your sons husbands brothers daddies out here being kohls khaki wearing pier one tiki torch terrorists.
Get your fucking people together and set their asses straight. Don’t ignore your wack ass cousins and uncles aunts and your old ass racist grandmamas and all others in your family who gets down with subtle or overt racism.
White (white identifying) folks This is YOUR MOMENT to show how really down you claim to be against racism. You against that racist shit SHOW IT. Be co-conspirators!! fuck allies…we don’t need any more allies who sit and pat each other on the tits & nuts about how hood and good y'all are as good white folks.
Put your money mouth and maybe even your body on the frontline opposing your cousins your uncles your sisters daddies your mamas your racist ass boss at work and anywhere else that type of thinking and behavior shows itself.
Anybody got hurt feelings about this post, fuck yo feelings hunty. We as in Black and various POC BEEN TELLING YOU ABOUT THIS BULLSHIT. So really fuuuuuuuck your feeeelings and your bullshit overly intellectualized thoughts on the issue at hand.
Y'all see some shit on the internet or tv and you clutch your pearls in surprise and disgust.
Don’t be disgusted. GET OUT THERE ON THAT FRONT LINE!
Get at your fellow white (white identifying) peeps who are about that bullshit. Up close and personal.
What is happening in Charlottesville surprises absolutely no one who paid attention to Trump’s campaign. To those of you who suggested that he was a harmless idiot, I said then and I say again, whether or not he is a fool (no argument there) is not really the issue. Much like ISIS, he represents a banner under which these inbred assholes can align themselves to spew hatred and violence.
And as for those American Nazis waving their swastikas while they chant, “Blood and Soil,” it is a pity that schools in the US have apparently stopped teaching the history of the Second World War, because these fuckers seem to be seriously confused in the expression of their patriotism. Lord, what would their grandparents—you know, the ones who fought the “real” Nazis—have to say about this bullshit?
Grant Green - Don’t Let the Sun Catch You Crying (1963)
Great Grant Green solos, take 3
Count this LP among the many belatedly released titles from the Blue Note catalog worthy of more attention. This unreleased gem of a session is much sought after, probably because of the very fine vintage of playing throughout from these three musicians. Aces.
From the album “Blues For Lou” (1999)
Recorded at the Van Gelder Studio, Englewood Cliffs, New Jersey on February 20, 1963 (previously unissued).
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I don’t shop in my neighborhood anymore because Just about everywhere I go I feel entirely unwelcome and antagonized. My neighborhood is about as far as you can go while still saying you are in the Bronx. It is a fairly quiet working class community of mostly Italian, Irish, and Hispanics. There are very few black people here, which is why when we see each other we give each other knowing nods of acknowledgment.
Key Food on Westchester Avenue
The neighborhood supermarket is a Key Food on Westchester Avenue. When I first moved here, I did all my shopping there, that changed after three months. The level of bigotry and rudeness I experienced from customers to workers alike in that time made me stop going there altogether. It was so bad, I complained to the Key Food Corporate office (who does that?). It is easily the unfriendliest supermarket I have ever been to. I used to feel like damn, I came here to spend money for food not fight racism. What is this? Now I just shop day by day from other sources outside of the neighborhood. If you are black and you think about shopping here do not expect a warm and fuzzy experience, that is not to be found here.
Rite Aid on Crosby Avenue
I have literally been followed around this store. And just like Key Food the locals clearly object to the prescience of anyone that doesn’t look like them. It was here that I began to realize that the locals don’t consider the stores in this neighborhood to be there for your convenience. They believe these stores are there for THEIR convenience ONLY.
George’s Diner
You have no idea how excited I was to live so close to a diner. As a person who occasionally wakes up with a hangover…ahem…a good diner is a absolute godsend. Not this one. The food here is bad even by Diner standards, but the service here is worse. Even the cashier who takes your money does so as if he’s doing you a favor. The locals here love this place, I guess it’s because they are greeted with smiles and pleasantries. I, on the other hand found myself having to ignore my ill treatment because it was just exhausting. During one experience, I simply told my waitress take my food back and I’ll just sit here and have coffee. Anyone who has dined with me knows I am a generous tipper, the last time I walked out of here I left nothing and I haven’t been back since.
Chirping Chicken
Just order over the phone. Don’t go here in person. There isn’t a friendly person in this joint. They’ll take your order, make you repeat it twice, and still fuck it up. I walked in with a friend from Africa and lord have mercy you would have thought I brought Satan to the gates of Heaven. Oh, and they lie….do you accept cards? No. Cash only. When you call, and ask the same question they tell you not over the phone only in person. Classy.
I could go on but I chose these four places because in every neighborhood, the drug store, the local restaurants and the supermarket should be places EVERYONE feels welcome and well-served. That simply isn’t the case in Pelham Bay. Before anyone talks about me being sensitive, you should know that I didn’t come into any of these stores expecting to be treated royally, I simply expected to be treated like a paying customer and I received substandard treatment. Not co-incidentally this was one of few districts in the Bronx Donald Trump won during the election. That, by the way, did not shock me. It only confirmed what I already felt about where the people of this neighborhood lean politically and their attitudes towards people who aren’t white (or known and trusted surrogates).
I don’t spend much money here. I shop at Target or Kmart, I never eat more than Spanish or Chinese food here, I go Stop and Shop, Whole Foods for grocery or the corner store for smaller items. The businesses run by people of color are much friendlier and they never fail to treat you like they appreciate your business. Yes, I pay a little more here and there, but my experience is worth it. In truth, the only reason I have stayed here for three years is because my rent is cheap and I’m close to the Subway.
What I find most interesting is that most of the criminal activity in my neighborhood is committed by white males.
I go to work every day for a law firm in midtown but it’s me you object to…ok, got it.
Thanks for reading. Don’t spend your money where it’s not welcome.
Peace.
The boogie down BX is where I’m from and this mode of bullshit is just….
yep some things change but most fucked up things always stay the same.
